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LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
To be honest, I have almost nothing to say anymore. It's kind of sad, I used to talk all the time and now I don't feel like talking to anyone. Stories don't seem as funny now.

I'm not sure if I'm depressed or numb or JUST TURNED DOWN BY 67%?

Wait, I was going to write about these things and then I remember whinging is boring.

HI EVERYONE.

I hope everyone is doing well, and you are happy with your lives. I also hope someone leaves me fic recs in the comments because jfc it's getting hard to find fic. Pinboard just doesn't work as well as delicious did. No fault to the pinboard guy who wrote a fantastic essay about how he wanted fandom people and lurked around us like a creeper which is so nice and lovely because I love creepers.

I'm reading Misha/Jensen right now, still in revenge for GishWHES but I'll probably get past that eventually.

In closing the only actual thought I have had today is that I want to be a werefox so I could be a fox and hang out in the woods.

Now I have to go turn someone's story into my own LJ style so I can read it without my eyes bleeding.

I love you all.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
14 July 2015 @ 08:33 pm
Is anyone still here?
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
02 July 2015 @ 07:33 pm


I think this is all you need to know.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
30 August 2012 @ 09:14 pm
omens told me to post sections of wips I have:

When you see this, post a little weensy excerpt from as many random works-in-progress as you can find lying around. Who knows? Maybe inspiration will burst forth and do something, um, inspiration-y. YOU MAY ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT THESE IF YOU WANT. I WAS TOLD THAT IS ANOTHER MEME.

ONE.

Stiles recovers first and says, “What does it look like, Scott? We’re playing a very stupid version of gay chicken. Pretty sure I’m winning.”

“You’re not winning,” Derek says, like his opinion matters, and turns to Scott and gestures angrily with the arm still attached to Stiles’. “Did you know he has wolfsbane?”

“Of course I do,” Scott says. “Allison gave it to him.”

“Obviously,” Stiles adds.

“Stop touching him,” Scott says, frowning at Derek.

Derek stares back, unimpressed, and huffs a laugh. “I don’t think that’s up to you, Scott.”

TWO

"Why do you have this?" Stiles asks. "It's just pictures of ladies in their bathing suits."

"I read it for the articles," Derek says, straight faced. Stiles looks confused and Derek says, "Give it some time and you'll understand." He takes the magazine back, and tucks it carefully back into his pocket. It's very important to his life's happiness. Stiles is still happily taking tissues and other items out of Derek's jacket, so Derek unzips Stiles' Spiderman bag in retaliation. He pulls the stuffed wolf out and starts laughing. Stiles yells, "HEY! DON'T LAUGH AT STUART!"

THREE

Stiles says, "I bring coffee and kisses. Which one do you want first?"

Derek makes a disbelieving face at him, and Stiles says, "I guess you get neither then." He scowls at Derek. "If Allison had used that line on Scott, he would have fallen all over himself and her. I feel unappreciated." He waves the coffee marked Sour Wolf at Derek anyway.

FOUR

"You're right. Rereading all the Harry Dresden books haven't actually been that helpful," Stiles says. "Which is too bad because he's totally badass and who I want to be when I grow up."

"I have no idea who you are talking about," Derek says. "Is this a warlock you've read about?"

"Fictional character," Stiles explains. "He fights monsters and the mafia."

FIVE

It was strange in some ways not to have a crush on Lydia anymore, but being her best friend was so much better. She had given him a Tiffany bracelet with a heart, and he wore it completely without shame. She had a matching one she never took off. He gave her a t-shirt that says 'Bonnie Elizabeth Parker' on the front in fancy script.

They hit San Francisco just in time for the texts to start arriving on one of the burner phones Stiles picked up. He had left Scott a note that said, 'ADVENTURES AND MIRTH: 512-648-9732.'

He really hopes Scott doesn't give the number to Stiles' dad or he's going to have to dump the phone and that will piss him off.

Two weeks later, they're in Tijuana and have managed not to get sick at all. Stiles feels pretty victorious which is the cue for Derek to show up at their door, growling, and pissed off. Stiles has had a lot of tequila



They hang out at gay clubs and rank guys’s abs on a scale of Derek-Danny-Jackson-Scott.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
30 August 2012 @ 08:59 pm
1 - Your current OTP: DEREK AND STILES. I AM EVEN WEARING A SHIRT THAT SAYS SO. KIND OF.

2 - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind: BRUCE BANNER AND TONY STARK

3 - A pairing you have never liked and probably never will: COULSON AND HAWKEYE. NEVER.

4 - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t: SNAPE AND HARRY BECAUSE THEY HAD A GREAT FANDOM BUT EWW.

5 - Have you added anything stupid/cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what: SEE ALL MY FIC.

6 - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom: ACTIVELY? I GUESS FIVE YEARS MAYBE? BUT SENTINEL FOR LYFE.

7 - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it: BLAIR AND JIM

8 - Do you prefer characters from real action series or anime series: REAL ACTION SERIES

9 - Has the internet caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why: TEEN WOLF FANDOM ISN'T WINNING ITSELF ANY POINTS LATELY. SGA FANDOM FUCKED ITSELF OVER.

10 - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr your social network sites: X-MEN FIRST CLASS.

11 - How do you feel about the other people in your current fandom: NOPE.

12 - Your favorite fanartist/author gives you one request, what do you ask for: BLANKET FIC.

13 - Your favorite fanart or fanartist: MAICHAN

14 - Your favorite fanfiction or fanauthor: IT DEPENDS ON FANDOM HONESTLY.

15 - Choose a song at random, which OTP does it remind you of: OKAY THE SONG IS PUSSY BY THE BRAZILIAN GIRLS. SO JACK AND DANIEL.

16 - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas): DEREK ET AL ARE ALL FAIRIES

17 - A ship you’ve abandoned and why: I GAVE UP ON STILES AND ISAAC BECAUSE I WANT STILES TO MOTHER HIM AND ISAAC TO MARRY SCOTT NOW.

18 - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships: PLEASE. SOMEONE ELSE ALWAYS SHIPS IT. EVEN CHARACTERS WHO HAVEN'T MET.

19 - Show us an example of your personal headcanon: I THINK DANNY HAS AN OLDER BROTHER NAMED CHARLIE WHO IS A FRAT DOUCHEBAG THAT LIVES AT HOME AND JACKSON HATES HIM FOREVER. AND A YOUNGER BROTHER NAMED CONNOR WHO IS BASICALLY A MINI-DANNY ONLY MORE ADORABLE AND HE HAS A CRUSH ON STILES.

20 - Do you remember what your first fanwork was? NOPE!

21 - Self-rec: What's your favorite fanwork you've created? GRAVITY IS MY FAVORITE.

22 - Are you one of those fans who can’t watch anything without shipping: NO

23 - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms: DRACO MALFOY, STILES STILINSKI, LOKI LAUFEYSON, DANIEL JACKSON, TIM DRAKE.

24 - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms: Jim/Blair. John/Aeryn Sun. Brian/Justin.

25 - A fandom you’re in but have no ships from: I AM NOT SURE I DO FANDOMS IF I DON'T SHIP?

26 - Ask me a different fannish question
 
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
18 August 2012 @ 01:14 am
I love that people are writing these lovely little essays about why they ship Derek and Stiles for actual reasons and all I can think is I ship them because when Derek shoved Stiles against the door in his room I had a temporary porno blackout and wanted them to fuck so bad I could actually feel it in my brain.

sorry guys but I ship them mostly because they're two dudes. I don't have a higher purpose. I'm really shallow.



I ship Jackson and Lydia because I'm crazy.

Isaac should lick Scott.

the end of this post.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
28 July 2012 @ 03:08 pm
the show Political Animals...is anyone cutting it so it's just the Sebastian Stan parts? Because I don't want to watch another show but I want to watch him do things. Now that I have accepted him into my heart as Bucky, I have to stalk him forever. It's how that works.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
17 July 2012 @ 08:52 pm


I am moving him up to fifth hottest person on the planet right now.

demon.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
15 July 2012 @ 06:27 pm


My favorite part of this is his teeth.
 
 
LOVE ME AND DESPAIR
15 July 2012 @ 04:26 am
Saucery wrote an essay about Derek/Stiles and them potentially becoming canon. One of the comments included 'and then he would have to turn gay. And that doesn't happen.' or something close to that.

FOR FUCK'S SAKE BISEXUALS EXIST. AND DAVIS HASN'T BEEN SUBTLE ABOUT SETTING STILES UP AS ONE.

BISEXUALS EXIST.



In other news, it's 4:30 and my brain is still singing the awake song. [Lyrics: Awake Awake Awake.]

I thought tumblr covered literally every facet known to man about sexual orientations already but apparently not.

IN OTHER NEWS: WINTER SOLDIER FUCKKKKK YEAH. I mean I knew it since Bucky became Winter Soldier in the comics again but still FUCK YEAH.